Although I set out to keep regular posts when I started this blog, getting overwhelmed with life kind of got in the way! But now I think this will help make sense of the chaos that has become my life!
After just over 6 years Craig and I just ended our relationship. His priorities in life have become set in China now. The biggest adjustment is shifting my focus to "Me" instead of "Us". I'm stuck in that place between what was and what my future is going to be.
Which would not be as much of an issue if I didn't have many other things going on with life. My mom was just put into an assisted living facility in Owensboro. Why so far? Since she is not yet 62 she doesn't qualify for regular assisted living, and her health and mental status is not yet bad off enough to qualify at her age. She is one of the people that falls between the cracks. Dawn and I have not visited this place (it was set up by the hospital and agreed on by mom before we even knew anything about it), so we have no idea exactly how it's set up. She has been in and out of the hospital and nursing home for over a year, so it is a relief to know she is somewhere safe at least.
The first of the year I started being nauseous pretty much all the time. After several (expensive) tests they came to the conclusion that they have absolutely no idea why. Great, huh? I also found out the medicine they put me on is quite controversial in how many serious permanent side effects it can have. That, plus the fact that I gained 8 lbs in 2 months on it WITH regular exercise and watching what I ate, I decided to go off of it. The doctors could care less about figuring out why I gained the weight, nor do they care since i'm not overweight yet (I guess i'm supposed to wait until I become obese THEN be concerned!), nor did they listen when I explained my diet and exercise. I have started FINALLY losing the weight the last couple weeks, after another doctor helped me with some intestinal issues I was having. This was also around the same time that Craig and I ended things, so i'm wondering if that was causing stress making me hold on to the weight as well! Unfortunately now I have had well over $1000 in medical bills, for tests which told me absolutely nothing no less!
Then there was my car situation. My car was dying fast with all the miles I have to put on it to/from work every day. My brother in law bought it from me (it is great for his 2 mile drive to/from work), and I am buying Craig's Jag from him. After weighing all my options, this seemed like both the easiest and most economical soloution for me. It was less than buying a used Honda or Toyota would be from a dealer (Jag's are mostly show peeps!), plus I am making payments to him directly instead of having to pay interest on a loan. Unfortunately a month later it overheated on me crossing the bridge to IN. That, plus a few other maintenance issues it had from having over 100,000 miles on it, cost me another $1000. Yeah, I can't get any breaks!
So that has been the basic stress of my life for the last 8 months. There are some issues with work as well, including not having a raise in almost 3 years! But I won't get into all of that. I am still working on my 3D imaging courses, and i'm hoping (praying!) I can get a better paying job with this.
Right now I am still living in Craig's house for the time being. With all my setbacks this year I can't really afford to get an apartment (or buy a house) for a while. Since he only comes home a couple times a year now this won't be too much of an issue. I still am looking forward to getting my own place as soon as I can though! For one, I moved here to help with "our" future. Since that is no longer the case I have no desire to live this far out. I also really miss living in Louisville. It is so far out to go anywhere, not to mention the gas I have to use. Plus the maintenance of keeping up with a 3 bedroom house on 7 acres on my own is not exactly fun! Especially during ice and snow storms. Then there's the issue of getting back out there and dating again. Not exactly the best circumstance to move on and date when you live in your ex's house! I know it will be a little while before i'm ready to start looking for dates, but at the same time I wish I was already past all the crap I have to go thru to get to that point. But moving on from a 6 year relationship, especially when you are my age and now realize that having a family may very well be out of the question, doesn't happen overnight! Unlike the last person I dated before Craig, where I was out ready to date the next week! LOL He was such a waste of time thought that I was ready to move on asap!
So I guess that's about it for my update almost 8 months in the making. I'm sure my moving and dating experiences (or lack thereof!) will make for some interesting posts in the future. After all, nothing ever goes smoothly and without incident in my life! :-)
Monday, August 16, 2010
Monday, February 15, 2010
New year, new blog contemplation
It has been another crazy start to another new year! I have had 3 snow days from work in 3 weeks, 2 of which the practice closed the office, the other I couldn't get out of my street! So I thouight i'd take this time to post a new entry, which I haven't done in forever.
This year was the start of me getting back on track with my workouts. I also wanted to lose the 5 lbs I gained in my stressful year last year! Things are going great with it. I'm continuing with my pilates/stability ball workouts, which are really getting my core and abs in to shape! My goal is to lose the 5 lbs before Ginger's wedding (1 lb to go!), and continue getting in shape for the rest of the year. So far so good!
With getting back in to my workout and nutrition routine, and viewing other's endeavors online and at work, I started getting frustrated. So many people are so uneducated on nutrition especially! Then I noticed people going all gung ho in workouts and being sore all the time. Again, not having the information necessary. So I started thinking if only there was a way I could help educate people on nutrition, and let them know that you don't have to go to extremes to lose weight. Also, that nutrition to lose weight and keep it off is a lifetime choice, and that "diets" don't work because as soon as you go off of them you gain the weight back. Not to mention that some of these "diets" are dangerous and unhealthy.
I considered a book, but this time in my life I don't have the time or the resources to write one. But these ideas were still eating at me (no pun intended). So then I got an idea: what about a blog? That way I can break my ideas up into different entries. It will also help show the main point in my nutrition ideas, which is educate yourself and make little changes at a time. Those small changes will build to be a complete overhaul of your diet, where as completely changing your eating habits overnight will be both overwhelming and difficult to stick with. It will also give me a chance to get feedback from all walks of life, both about what they think about the blog and what their needs are. I want this to not only help people lose weight, but get EVERYONE, young, old, fat, skinny, eating a healthy diet and avoiding health issues that go along with a poor diet like diabetes, high cholesterol, and high blood pressure.
So, that's where I am with it now. Right now i'm stuck on coming up with a title and web address name for my blog! Once I get past that hurdle i'll be set to go!
This year was the start of me getting back on track with my workouts. I also wanted to lose the 5 lbs I gained in my stressful year last year! Things are going great with it. I'm continuing with my pilates/stability ball workouts, which are really getting my core and abs in to shape! My goal is to lose the 5 lbs before Ginger's wedding (1 lb to go!), and continue getting in shape for the rest of the year. So far so good!
With getting back in to my workout and nutrition routine, and viewing other's endeavors online and at work, I started getting frustrated. So many people are so uneducated on nutrition especially! Then I noticed people going all gung ho in workouts and being sore all the time. Again, not having the information necessary. So I started thinking if only there was a way I could help educate people on nutrition, and let them know that you don't have to go to extremes to lose weight. Also, that nutrition to lose weight and keep it off is a lifetime choice, and that "diets" don't work because as soon as you go off of them you gain the weight back. Not to mention that some of these "diets" are dangerous and unhealthy.
I considered a book, but this time in my life I don't have the time or the resources to write one. But these ideas were still eating at me (no pun intended). So then I got an idea: what about a blog? That way I can break my ideas up into different entries. It will also help show the main point in my nutrition ideas, which is educate yourself and make little changes at a time. Those small changes will build to be a complete overhaul of your diet, where as completely changing your eating habits overnight will be both overwhelming and difficult to stick with. It will also give me a chance to get feedback from all walks of life, both about what they think about the blog and what their needs are. I want this to not only help people lose weight, but get EVERYONE, young, old, fat, skinny, eating a healthy diet and avoiding health issues that go along with a poor diet like diabetes, high cholesterol, and high blood pressure.
So, that's where I am with it now. Right now i'm stuck on coming up with a title and web address name for my blog! Once I get past that hurdle i'll be set to go!
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Spring has sprung!
Well, it was spring until I woke up today. We've reverted to chilly temps again!
I've been doing a bunch of spring cleaning and organizing to get the house ready for some cookouts and such this summer. Last year I only had 1 because of the state of the house (especially the broken patio door) and yard! This year I plan on fully utilizing and enjoying the great patio and quiet setting of our back yard! The new french patio doors look great and are actually usable, so i'll be more tempted to have dinner and relaxing nights out there.
I started all my planting this week. This year i've branched out to try some hanging planters. I have a cherry tomato seed and strawberry seed basket, and 2 tomato plants in hanging planters. We'll see how I do with these, as we all know i'm not considered a master gardener by any means! This year i'm also trying my herbs using seeds instead of plants. Just got those done yesterday. Now I just have some simple roll-out wildflowers to plant in the ground as soon as it dries out more and warms back up!
I'm most excited about my new solar lighting and fire pit. It's pretty dark around the patio, and the fire pit will be great for chilly nights and for roasting marshmallows! I'll also be setting up the table umbrella Letha loaned me since the patio gets full sun pretty much all day.
So everyone bring your beverage of choice and come hang out (and cookout) on the patio!
I've been doing a bunch of spring cleaning and organizing to get the house ready for some cookouts and such this summer. Last year I only had 1 because of the state of the house (especially the broken patio door) and yard! This year I plan on fully utilizing and enjoying the great patio and quiet setting of our back yard! The new french patio doors look great and are actually usable, so i'll be more tempted to have dinner and relaxing nights out there.
I started all my planting this week. This year i've branched out to try some hanging planters. I have a cherry tomato seed and strawberry seed basket, and 2 tomato plants in hanging planters. We'll see how I do with these, as we all know i'm not considered a master gardener by any means! This year i'm also trying my herbs using seeds instead of plants. Just got those done yesterday. Now I just have some simple roll-out wildflowers to plant in the ground as soon as it dries out more and warms back up!
I'm most excited about my new solar lighting and fire pit. It's pretty dark around the patio, and the fire pit will be great for chilly nights and for roasting marshmallows! I'll also be setting up the table umbrella Letha loaned me since the patio gets full sun pretty much all day.
So everyone bring your beverage of choice and come hang out (and cookout) on the patio!
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